Just Another Day

I started real estate school last night. I havent been in school in 7 years, so the idea of going back to school scared me enough. However, its for a new job and it will give me more options in my future so its worth it I suppose. So last night I was ready. I had my jamba juice in one hand and my notebook in the other and just as I step out of the car....I spill Jamba Juice all over myself. Seriously?! I was not happy. I cleaned off what I could and tried to get in the class to a seat as quickly as possible. Naturally I chose a seat all alone toward the back of the class. This class is going to kick my butt. They even tell you that the national average of people passing the real estate exam is under %51. Apparently for my particular school the passing average is %74, but with a class of 12 thats not too assuring. Needless to say for the next 8 weeks Im going to have to relearn how to study so that Im not wasting my new employers money by taking this class. Yip-i-dee-doo-da.

On a happier note FALL is finally coming in. Sure we still have temps in the 80s but its not the 90s or higher. PLUS our evenings and mornings are chilled. Its very promising. However I think the weather changes are to blame for my current health situation which is equivalent to a level of torture. I dont get allergy and sinus problems often. But I swear when I do, they're hardcore. I can have a sniffle one day and the next have an ear and sinus infection. So this time I've been trying to medicate and get the drainage out (even blowing my nose which I hate doing), though Im not sure how effective its being. I can still feel the pressure in my jaw and behind my eyes. Im hoping I wont have to go to the doctor about it but we'll see. At this point, Im miserable already. Seeing a doctor can only be moving in the positive direction. Im just cheap and trying to save the money or I'd go now.

(Sorry this blog has no flow to it...Im blaming all the medications Im hyped up on so that I can breathe and semi-function)

As Im finishing my last week here with Gary its weird. You'd think I'd be wrapping things up, trying to leave as much of a trail to follow as possible for those I'm leaving behind. Im not. Dont get me wrong, I am making notes when I think about it just in case they need to know it later on, but Im not going out of my way to make things simpler or dumb anything down. My concerns are making sure my external hard drive actually contains all the right things that I need to keep from my laptop (that will no longer be mine in a few days) and making sure I get everything out of my desk. When you've been somewhere 5 years your things end up all kinds of places. I am at a point where Im just ready to go. This week seems pointless. That may be because Im so miserable with sinus problems or because I started school...but regardless its pointless. Theres nothing happening in the next three days thats going to make a difference in how it will work after I'm gone. No one is learning anything or trying to keep up with what I've got going. Im ready to go. Start the new job. The new life.

I just realized last night that while Im excited about all my shows coming back on tv...I wont get to watch any of them for 8 weeks because of school. Really? And I dont have DVR. Or internet to watch them online. So Im not real sure how I'll swing that yet. But Im bummed. And its 8 weeks of missing my beau. :-( Things we do for our future.

To the Point

This man holds my heart.

The Winds of Change

5 years going on 6 and I finally am leaving my job. I left once before. I was gone 2 months and hated the new job so I came back. There were stipulations of course; stipulations that werent met. Stipulations that would have made a huge difference that may have made my job more long term. However, in the long run I think maybe it was all supposed to happen this way. Where I am now brought me to where I'm going.

As of October 1st I will be working for a friend of mine, Leigh Singhisen. She's a real estate agent for Coldwell Banker. Ive never done real estate but Im up for the challenge. Im ready for a job that I dont have to worry about taxes. Somewhere that Im not stressed out because the entire office and profitability lays on my shoulders. It will be nice to not feel alone in my work. It will also be nice to know that Im not digging a hole I cant get out of someday.

Will I miss my office? Yes. Absolutely. I love who I work with. Theyre a bit of a family to me. We all know each others business. We all have been in each others lives every day for 5 years now, so to have them gone will be a weird thing. Im also going to miss the casual setting. So casual that at times its probably ridiculous but its nice. Appearance hasnt been a priority here; it will be there. And of course theres all my flex time. The fact that I can be off whenever I want with pay, no limits really. (I know what you're thinking...sweet, right? It is, but it comes at a price.)

All I know is these last 8 days of work are going to kill me. Day 2 and the stress has only gotten worse. Why? Because Im being helped even less, and on top of that Im being asked to do 2 times as much. I guess he thinks he'll squeeze as much in while I'm here as possible. What I think is maybe he should take on some of the responsibilities and try to get them done while I'm still here to help him through it. You know, try to learn to atleast doggy paddle before you're thrown into an open ocean of tossing waves? I think it seems logical. He doesnt. So 8 days down, and I cant wait for them to be over.

New apartment. New love. New job. New me? I also start a new diet jump start to get healthy and keep it life style. I always hate talking about them online because I know it probably sounds like a broken record. All I know is that I am ready to do something. Im tired of being tired. Of feeling unattractive. Im just over it. Again. But it needs to happen. I need to be healthy. I want to be healthy. I feel like Im getting a new season in life, and I want this one to not be held back by my self conscious body image. I want to be confident when I walk into a room. I want to look in the mirror and not hate what I see. I want to be able to dance and not care.

On a happier note, all last week I got the company of my Laceface, Lacy Reed. Let me tell you, when you live with Lacy, you eat well. AND on top of her company, I had an amazing girls night last weekend! Sometimes its nice to just get with the girls and eat, drink, and talk til you cant possibly keep your eyes open.

Girl Talk, Gossip, Gab, Laughs, and Good Times

Indoor S'mores and Homemade Crab Ragoon

No Better Time Than Now

I figure if I'm going to have a blog set up I should probably use it. I used to love blogging; we'll see how it goes. I have no real intention, set purpose or direction for the blog. I suppose it will just be whatever I feel like writing about in my life at the time. Cant hurt right?

I recently moved into a new apartment. If you know me, you know I move A LOT. In fact, this will be the 12th time I have literally packed up my stuff and moved to a different location...all in about 5 years. Its been quite ridiculous and I am aware of that. But this place is a keeper. It was built in 1928. This is part of why I love it so much. It has all these neat bits of character: an arched doorway, a wall cutout for a phone, an ironing board that comes out from the wall, wood floors. Its perfect for me and Peanut (who happens to be the cutest dog in the planet). Not to mention that the location being closer to my sisters house is a huge plus.

I have never been happier in an apartment. Its more than an apartment to me here. Its a home. And I'm working on making it mine. All my life Ive had hand-me-down things; this time around I wanted things in my place that I PERSONALLY picked out. So I've been selling almost everything I had so that I would have the funds to buy all new things. I'm only a few items away from being done. I've already bought my first kitchen table, bed, rugs, curtains, and I got the red couch I've always wanted! I just need to sell my dresser and my love seat, purchase a chair or chaise lounge, and then I'll be done. I cant wait. Its been quite the task but its so worth it. It makes me feel like I'm growing up in a sense...making big purchases...creating a home. Its exactly what I needed after turning 25.

25 was a big year for me. The last time I remember FEELING older on a birthday was when i turned 20. I was leaving the teens and that felt like a big deal. I suppose it was in its own ways but 25 is a much bigger deal. I always thought I'd be married with at least one kid by 25. Especially since I was ready to be married at 18 (and I don't mean like a kooky ridiculous school girl ready). Little did I know God had other plans for me. If Id have been married when I wanted not only would it be to someone awful (haha) but I wouldn't have been able to dive into the theatre world like I did. Not that you cant be married in the theatre world, but when I dove in I DOVE in. We're talking 7 days a week. No marriage can survive a 9-5 PLUS every night at the theatre 365 days a week. Its just not possible. Id have missed out on lots of experiences and relationships that I feel have been a big part of who I am today. I don't know where or who I'd be without all of that influence and love. I was always one who moped about being single during my teen years. And in my early twenties til recently I had actually adopted the idea of single "cat lady"...though my pet of choice would be dogs. Cats are icky, haha. This was a legitimate thought process that Id seriously almost come to terms with. And then things changed.

Its a beautiful, exciting, wonderful thing when someone you've known awhile starts being noticed in a different light. And its even more beautiful, exciting, and wonderful when you realize that person has noticed you in the same light. So after lots of awkward goodbyes in the Griffis front lawn, heart pounding nervous texts, and moments that the butterflies could carry you away I found myself dating the most amazing man in the world. Friday will be 5 months with Jeremiah, otherwise known as Jeremiah Lamentations or Meerkat depending on the crowd. I can honestly say its been 5 of the greatest months in my life. I can also honestly say that I never would have thought you could fall in love with someone so deeply and sincerely so quickly...but you can. And I did. I now only look forward to the exciting things life has to bring us.

"Us": A word I'd almost given up on.